dweeb

At Harris Teeter, buying birthday card for my sister.

Had to get this one for myself.

It's still cracking me up...just thinking about it..

why-oh-why-oh-why

am i such a dweebiac

forever stuck in middle school humor

??????

#crying

#realtears

springs of wisdom

What do I like best about my bi-weekly shrink appointments?  Is it the calming water fountain out in the courtyard?  The serene atmosphere surrounding the office and the comfortable setting inside, as well?  The soothing whirr of the small electric white noise makers strategically placed just outside each therapist's  soundproof door?

nah.

It's more of this deepening connection we're establishing through repeated visits, where she is seeing my progress, the strengthening of my resolve.  It's this great feeling I have today, where we are finally putting some defining words around this "thing", this "what I want, what I really REALLY want."  We're making progress.  She sees where I'm at, she sees the obstacles I'm up against, and she has the tools and knowledge that can help me cross that chasm.  To go from this overwhelming sense of discouraging mess, where I feel like I am powerless, have no power to be the best mother I  can be, and definitely have no access to a fulfilling, intimate relationship, to a place of freedom, where I can be who I am and strive to be even more.

Looking forward to my next session.  We plan on getting into some details, some real gut-work, if that makes sense.  Really getting in there, looking at some possible solutions, considering all the angles, and leaving me with a more informed, clearer view of where I can go from here.  I'm getting excited.  So stay tuned!

Revenge.