house i lke

will someone please buy this for me?

ok it's not perfect.  the windows are small and there aren't enough of them.  i go crazy in dark spaces.  depressing without enough light. i got that "S.A.D" syndrome, i think...

but the potential of all the space, the beautiful lake, and best of all...the privacy. the separateness.  yes.  this is what i need.  a place to finally be my own person, yet inflict as little pain on the family as possible.  keep us all together, for the most part.  a place for healing.  a place of transition.  yes i'm coveting this place right now, but sad because there's no way it could be had for us right now. probably not ever.  need to settle for something else.  trying to keep my hopes up.  please God. make a way where there is no way.  amen.

(more details here:)

http://www.fmrealty.com/real-estate/raleigh/8227-hillside-drive/1976161?rowNum=11&searchID=219e28be-a4fe-45a3-a563-52bfd7c1087b&sortBy=priceAsc&pageSize=20&page=1&displayPhoto=exterior

moving on...

taking some small steps...

                                                      breathe deep...i can do this...

                                                        looks ok from a distance...
                                                               

                                                          ...got here a few minutes late, place is packed,
                                                                  so here i am in the overflow room, basically the lobby                                                            outside the high school auditorium.
                                                               
                                                        
                                                                   
        watching the service via the tv screen.... a taped message from the pastor at the main campus in durham..  excellent sermon, though, more on that somewhere else, later..i hope..
                                                                         

                               my analysis:  big church, big heart, so far so good.

                                           best part: even though i knew not a soul there, i "just happened" to run into an old friend there, an artist, Christian, mom of former babysitter of our kids...fellow youth worker in years gone by...who just started there too, who also has gone through anxiety/depression stuff, life changes...we talked, exchanged info, must get in touch again.  thank you, Jesus. that's why i was sent there.
                                                               

guess today was the first of my "try five". 

hope to try my second, soon.

Halloween 2014

 

Threshold

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Chubby bunny

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pajamas or halloween costume?

so this is what i've come to. 

a plush zebra.

Pot of tea (weird)

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